A kind of a "dangerous supplement", marked, scarred on a body, post-orgasmically, always, already in anticipation of (a) crisis OR for a desert avec 'agape'. Mindb(l)ogg(l)ing Noise. "Avalanche, would you share my last pursuit?" (Baudelaire)

Monday, April 28, 2008

+Μάριος Τόκας

Tou vazeis dyskola, Marie, tou kosmou autou tou amyalou. Pws na se thymithw, Marie? Opws thelw egw? I m' anemous paliofilous, opws thymate kaneis? Me diegiseis, sklavwmenes lexeis, allwn istories - me tin fwni tou kosmou- edw pou mathane ta matia mas na klaine kathws hamilonoune ta fwta sti skini kai mia orchestra tha sou paizei to finale? I san mia diki mou patrida kommatia?

Ena thelw na sou pw mystko: Opoio dromo kai na parw, sto swma sou epanw perpatw, Marie. San xehasmeni aposkevi anamniseis paliwn filiwn, skies ta tragoudia sou na mou egkainiazoun ton erwta. O Mais tote, Marie, den gelouse, ohi. To S' Agapw mia kourasmeni lexi, matia klammena aggelos ma kai fonias o erwtas. Na thymithw me to fws svisto, xepnoes gynaikes, na tis kratan oi anases twn tragoudiwn sou Marie? O erwtas ektos oriwn enthen kai enthen. To kalokairi ekeinoden eihai kyriakes. Ki antres na thymithw, pou m' oneira trena se stathmous,, pou san fantaroi gyrizan, tote, prin, ta metwpa, na sigontaroun me kithares tin anathewrisi enos viou anthospartou. Einai pio efkolo na pethainei kaneis para n' agapaei - mehri ekei akougame tote. Mehri ekei akouge tote. Kai tin ypokofi ekdikisi enos Exartate. Stous adeious dromous, skia ta tragoudia sou Marie. Ma kai dikaiwsi, tou erwta ws erwta, ws i mia alli istoria. Nai, egw thelw na zisw agapi mou. Mia alli patrida, opws leei ki o pateras mou syhna. Ki as plirwnwnte oi amarties, toutes oi amarties - poies amarties- me elipseis filiwn.

Zwntas ton erwta, zwntas ton Erwta, zwntas ton Erwta Mou, Marie, entos shedon tou onomatos sou, me ta filia pou ximerwnan harauges, ton idrwta pou eihe kati apo fwtia, martyras enos theogennitwr se mia tryferi palami stin katexohin erwtiki poli, stin alli patrida, ton allo topo, apo opou ola xekinisan, ola ta methysia -agapi mou, ax! ti fwtia- ekei, i thymisi sou vlemma na me stavrwnei, Marie. Swmata dihws amynes, Marie, i mnimi tis pareas, kai to mouskema tis psychis. To fysima, touti i anapnoi kai i anasa pafsipona stin pikra. Tin pikra tou anapofefktou ponou, kathws moirazete i patrida sou sta dyo kai kathws dyo agapoun tin kardya sou, tin pikra pou mono to stithos tin hwrei. To stithos parea kai to stithos tis pareas. Omoio tragoudi, sfyrigma ston dromo, stis aules, sta mikra diamerismata twn polewn, st' amphitheatra. Monaha omws etsi tin exwvellizei. Kai menei me ton erwta patrida me tin patrida ws erwta, me to alla mprosta apo to ki sena. Me to esena prwta prwta. Ki ystera, meta, tis gewgrafimens hwres: Ellada Kypro, Sovietiki Enwsi, Voulgaria, Yugosavia, Austria. To 'ethniko' den mporei para na parameinei 'mono'. I gewgrafia pia den ehei vouna kai dasi ma dakrya, filia kai heilia. Den ehei i poleodomia syrmatomplegmata ki alanes, geitonies ma stithi kai matia. Ki ola touta, aenaa kai trwta mazi, den einai tipota allo apo ena tragoudi, mia melwdia, ena sfyrigma. Ki etsi den 'svinei' i pnoi. Kammia 'pnoi' den einai etsi i 'teleftaia'. "Tipota den paei hameno"

Tou vazeis dyskola, Marie, tou kosmou autou tou amyalou. Etsi tha se thymithw Marie. Ohi san syntheti, stihourgo, diefthinti orchestras, gnwsto, filo, adelfo, gio, sympoliti, patera, syzygo, nono, stin Lefkwsia, stin Athina, stis Platres, sto Pera Pedi, stin Pafo, stis photografies, sta video, me enos leptou sigi, san aformi onomatothesias dromwn kai plateiwn. Tin wra pou to prwsopiko ginete amesws politiko, tin wra pou o politismos politikopioite, tha se thymithw, ws to politiko proswpo politismou pou ekane to politiko proswpiko kai tin politiki politismo. Ton Erwta ws prwti praxi tou aneikin, kai to anikein mono ws praxi Erwta. Ma kai ton Erwta monaha ws ainigma, dierwtisi, anazitisi, stenagmo. Trikymia. Mia porta pou perimenei kapou ston kosmo anoikti. Ekei pou den mporeis para na anastenazeis. Ki as fwnazoun oi geitonoi.

5 comments:

Γ.Ι. said...

Εν κρίμα έτσι κείμενα ναν ελληνοαγγλικά γραμμένα.

Lexi_penitas said...

Respect!

Gnomon said...

Υπέροχο, πραγματικά. Τούτο το κείμενο, μαζί με το παλιό που έγραψες για τη γυναίκα του Κληρίδη ("Na sou siwnonetai sta daktyla i zivania, gia na men apoktisei to penthos gefstiki ypostasi.") εν οι πιο έντιμες θανατο-λογίες που εθκιάβασα σε μπλογκ. Μπράβο τζιαι πάλε.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry.

K

Truly it's beautiful

xoxo

the Idiot Mouflon said...

"...Tou vazeis dyskola, Marie, tou kosmou autou tou amyalou. Etsi tha se thymithw Marie. Ohi san syntheti, stihourgo, diefthinti orchestras, gnwsto, filo, adelfo, gio, sympoliti, patera, syzygo, nono, stin Lefkwsia, stin Athina, stis Platres, sto Pera Pedi, stin Pafo, stis photografies, sta video, me enos leptou sigi, san aformi onomatothesias dromwn kai plateiwn..."

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